moving on and up

25 days till the big move.
I have mixed feelings, both excited
scared
giddy
horrified

so many emotions, when i think about what i am about to do my stomach turns.
or maybe it is just the chicken i just ate?

How does someone like me make friends in a totally new city?
Do i just walk up to someone young-ish looking and say:

"HI! My name is Rachel, I like kittys. Wanna be friends?"

most young people would look at me and think i have a disability. or am just a very creepy wierd person.
18 year olds dont meet eachother this way... we meet in over crowded classrooms and we complain about something we have in common. that is how it all starts:

"ugh i hate chemistry"
"ugh me too"
"LETS BE FRIENDS"

honestly, that is how i met all my friends.
But in the summer months, we are all happy and free. What do we have to complain about? espeically when we are busy roaming around with our complaining friends?

too bad for me, i dont have any complaining friends in Barrie. What ever will I do?
This is such a comfusing time..
should I be sad about the history i will lose with people in a town i grew up in?
Or should i be thankful to get away from that town where everyone knows me?

One thing i will for sure miss is the landscape. I love the flat hills and wide fields that makes Oxford County what it is. I will miss the cows and the familair smell they produce. That is my home.

But, now i get to see huge trees and sharp landscape. i get to look at more people and more stores, more cars.
mixed feelings surround my heart and i don't know what to feel.
The anticipation of the day creeps closer and closer like a coveting ghost.
hoooooooooooooooooooooooo


that is what ghosts say.