sunsets and good music

it is always the little things that make me really love being alive.

why is that? it could be something as small as a quick glance shared with my best friend,
or something as profound as a glorious sunset.
I was driving home from up north today and the sky was ablaze with brilliant pinks, oranges blue and purple.
the sight almost brought tears to me eyes!
right at that moment, i was so grateful to be alive and witness something so beautiful.

i was at ease. With my eye being delighted by the glorious sunset and my ears being entranced by the music coming from the radio.
PS---> listen to more Third Eye Blind.

Other things that make me happy to be breathing and living;

smiles shared while laying beside kevin
belly laughs with stupid friends
beautiful things to look at
beautiful sounds to hear
good, tasty food
a feeling of being relaxed and completey content

so, thanks.. to whoever made the stars line up so perfectly... so that i may be alive today.
'preciate it!

moving on and up

25 days till the big move.
I have mixed feelings, both excited
scared
giddy
horrified

so many emotions, when i think about what i am about to do my stomach turns.
or maybe it is just the chicken i just ate?

How does someone like me make friends in a totally new city?
Do i just walk up to someone young-ish looking and say:

"HI! My name is Rachel, I like kittys. Wanna be friends?"

most young people would look at me and think i have a disability. or am just a very creepy wierd person.
18 year olds dont meet eachother this way... we meet in over crowded classrooms and we complain about something we have in common. that is how it all starts:

"ugh i hate chemistry"
"ugh me too"
"LETS BE FRIENDS"

honestly, that is how i met all my friends.
But in the summer months, we are all happy and free. What do we have to complain about? espeically when we are busy roaming around with our complaining friends?

too bad for me, i dont have any complaining friends in Barrie. What ever will I do?
This is such a comfusing time..
should I be sad about the history i will lose with people in a town i grew up in?
Or should i be thankful to get away from that town where everyone knows me?

One thing i will for sure miss is the landscape. I love the flat hills and wide fields that makes Oxford County what it is. I will miss the cows and the familair smell they produce. That is my home.

But, now i get to see huge trees and sharp landscape. i get to look at more people and more stores, more cars.
mixed feelings surround my heart and i don't know what to feel.
The anticipation of the day creeps closer and closer like a coveting ghost.
hoooooooooooooooooooooooo


that is what ghosts say.

Stupid students?

Do employers in Barrie NOT want to hire students?
After HOURS of searching and searching for a job, I find nothing.
I am doomed to spend my summer out in my lounge chair getting as brown as a Himalyan child.
not bad.

I want to shout from rooftops:
" I AM A RELIABLE STUDENT WHO JUST WANTS MONEY! HIRE MEEEEEE!!!"

would i get arrested for doing that?
Even the farmers in Barrie don't want someone to pick rocks out of thier fields...
what is wrong with these people?


anyway.

You know your principal doesn't do much for the school wheeennn:

she pulls up to the front parking lot where there are benches and other areas to lounge,
She asks some under-year students if they would help her carry something from her car into the school,
They look confused at eachother but shrug and help her,
After they return back from inside they ask eachother,
"Who was that?" and "why was a random stranger asking us to help her unload her car?"

It takes ONE student (Out of 7 others) who has the secret knowledge to say:

"that is our principal."

haha.